I hate this.
I get into this situation ALL THE TIME. I go to a work place, get to a point where I don’t know what to do, and just STOP. Today, it may just be that I’m tired, but once again, just as was the case at my internship, I am at a job and do not know what to do because I need instruction from somebody else and don’t have it. This is when I get tempted to look at porn, and at that point, I’m gone.
I would give anything to get over this.
And truth be known, that’s literally all I can say about it at this point. I don’t know why this happens; don’t know how to get out of it; don’t know why it will happen again. And it makes me feel like shit.